I wonder if a by-product of grief is bone weariness, or if it comes from all the activity that goes along with all the stuff that has to be done.  I really haven’t had trouble sleeping when I get to bed, but I am so tired!  I should go to Dover this afternoon, get my car cleaned and pick up some stuff, but I am afraid I will fall asleep on the way.  I guess I will just go to the local car wash and forget that it needs a good job.

Tomorrow, I plan to go with Mama to Baltimore for a follow up with her thoracic surgeon.  She had a CAT scan with contrast early last month, and needs to have that evaluated and see how she is doing over all with her cancer.  The last scans were totally clear, and we are hoping for more good news.  I am afraid to hope too much, because it seems like most of the news in the medical field here of late has been anything but good.  She seems to be doing okay, though, and even with the devastating last few weeks, has been hanging in there and doing as well as can be expected.

The Yoder Family Calendar is finished.  Finally.  My sisters and I worked the last two days (with some help from Deborah and Christina) and my sister-in-love, Polly, took two pages to her house to do there. And all the pages are done!  Now we need to get it all sent off and printed.  We will be a few weeks late, and I am not happy with that.  Daddy always loved to look through it and see everyone’s birthday and anniversary pictures and he didn’t get to see any of this. 

Because we are so late, the new version will mark the first anniversary of his death.  Where will we be then, I wonder?  Going through the pictures this week to find ones for the calendar has been really difficult for me.  It seemed like everywhere I turned, there was his face.  Usually smiling, almost never talking, just watching the things of life going on around him, contemplating, listening, just there! 

Some days the thought of him in that City of Light is not enough to stay my tears.  How very much I miss him!