Thirty years ago today.
Eighteen hours of labor,
Then merciful darkness.
But they took you away,
And I never even knew
What color your eyes were.
Have you met your Grandpa?
Do babies grow up in Heaven?
Will you know me and Daddy
When we get there?
Child of our broken dreams,
You know better than we do,
(Because your knowlege is perfect)
The plan that gave and took away.
And it is wise and right and good.
Today I think of you and believe
That this was really best.
These thirty years have proved it so.
Delaware Grammy 
BEG, what a difficult memory to recall on this 19th day of Sept. I am glad it seems to be resolved in your mind, however, painful it must still be. Thank you for sharing a piece of your heart with us.
That is precious and so true…..their knowledge is perfect. “Do babies grow up in Heaven?” That thought recently struck me when I was reading someone’s blog about that. Would I want to keep her a baby forever? Perhaps there is only one age in Heaven……A Heavenly Age =) That’s interesting that “our” dates are only a day apart. There’s something almost “sacred?” (not sure if that’s the right word) about September 18 for me, as I’m sure you understand. ~T
{{ Hugs }} dear M.A.!!!
Thank you for sharing with us. 30 years seems like such a long time in one sense, and in another it is just a thought away. I wonder sometimes how life must be for those who do not believe in the Heavenly hereafter. How difficult it would be to try to figure out where their little loved ones are at, and we are so blessed in knowing that they are in God’s care! Thinking of you today~
We also have a little one we never got to hold or to know.There remains a longing within me,not a strong demanding sense but a gentle tugging that occasionally stirs me to wondering and pondering if we will meet again. The only thing I am sure of is that she is safely with The Lord.
………..To a land where joy will never end (your song) hallaluiah bye and bye….praise the Lord.
Unbelievable. I just got finished writing about the good birth experience I had thirty years ago, then I checked your blog and saw this. I knew you had had this experience, but I didn’t realize it was the day before we had Anthony. I just can’t begin to imagine the grief that such a loss would bring. I’m so glad God blessed you with more sons and daughters.
Hello , Sorry to hear about your son now. GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!!!!!!!
No person should be stopped from coming to Jesus. He went earlier than the rest of us, but he left a gap here on earth. It’a an honor to be able to mourn and reflect. That is the image of God in us.
Wow, thirty years and the pang of grief and wondering is still there…. I’ve thought about ours so many times…. Your experiences, empathy and advice encouraged me so much during that time and once again I thank you for being open to the Lord to help others through your pain.
I think babies grow up in heaven; but oh so differently from the rest of us, untainted in their souls by any baggage which our grown lives inevitably produce. Their depth of experience being in the presence of Jesus is probably, I think, on an entirely different dimension than ours will be. Thanks for opening to us this little window to this part of CM & CMW. mw
You have written a sad memory very well, and a mother heart can do nothing but weep with thee. But one thing for sure you know where he is.