Where am I??

Honestly, some days I don’t know myself!!!

Middle Daughter and Youngest Daughter are in New York for some sightseeing.

A friend who is a single mom has needed a ride to work for much of these last two weeks.  It is almost 30 miles roundtrip twice a day, and some days it gets very long and inconvenient.  But then, I think of her.  She has five daughters.  The daddy of her children is dead.  She lives in government housing.  The transmission on her van went up, leaving her with $1500.00 in repair bills.  She is struggling, she is alone, she is dependent on others for her transportation, and she isn’t sure that she can trust the one who said He will be a “loving Heavenly Father, a husband to the widow, and a father to the fatherless.”  I have it so good.

Youngest Son continues to amaze me at how much time an offspringin’ can take when he is five hundred miles away.  (He’s coming home in 10 days for about 5 days, then he plans to be off to Cedarville for college.)

Eldest Son is pursuing a career with a REACH Team.  (Lord Jesus, Hold me steady!)

There is canning to do.

. . . And this household has a new member.  Nettie came yesterday to share a bedroom with Cecelia and to see how things work out.  This has been the most “pensive” thing on my horizon.  We have agreed to “try” this placement, and I think that it is what God has for right now…Things are going better than I ever dreamed possible, and for that, I am so grateful.

But yesterday, cleaning out the few remnants left behind by Gertrude was emotionally exhausting.  I had gone through the room before, but I guess there was too much that was too hard to let go of.  Pictures.  Hair bows.  Christmas bells for her shoes.  Curlers.  Just little stuff.   What was I thinking?  How was waiting supposed to make this last “going through” stuff easier???

I confess I need the prayers of those I love . . .


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  1. You have my prayers as well as my deepest understanding. I’m not sure how I made it through summers like yours, but I did. I wish I could be there to offer you a hand. I’m so thankful that at least the situation with Audrey is going better than you had hoped. And I will pray that there will be someone else who can also provide some of your friend’s transportation.

  2. Dear Friend, you do have a lot on your plate!!! I do pray that Audrey will continue to work out there in your home, and that all the adjustments can be made with all your children!! Bless you for taking care of the lady in need of transportation. Are you finding time to take care of yourself? You need to, you know.

  3. Is Audrey as dependant as Linda?  Is she at the same center?  All day every day?  Will remember you, my friend, to Our Father.  And how are J’s girls doing these days?  What do they do during summer vacation with their mother at work?  I should just call you …   Love and blessings for a wonderfully peaceful day. 

  4. Mary so good to hear from you again.  We did see and visit with Lem for just a smiggen out at Conference.  I did not see Ralpheal.  Was he there? 
    I will be praying for you in your very fast paced life.  You stand so tall in my book. Yesterday I picked up a book at the thrift store for $.50.   It’s a book called The Tapestry by Edith Scheffer, about the life and times of Francis and Edith Schaeffer.  Last night I sat down and read the first chapter, The mystery of being!  It brought my attention to how the possibility of my existance is so rare. and yet …..God can say, “I knew you before the foundation of the world”.   Our lives are a Tapestry woven so tight with all the people who touch our lives.   I’m so thankful  for the threads of your life that are woven into this taperty of mine.   

  5. I miss Gerty too….    I hope things with Audrey work out, that your heart with be ok with it, and come to love her if the Lord wants her there….    And may the times with your children be sweet as they prepare to launch….  lots I wish I could put into words here but I do love you!  And you will be in my thoughts and prayers!  ~April

  6. BEG, your giving nature is so wonderful.  I, too, load my plate up with cares and concerns from time to time.  (Lucy, can verify this!!!)  Someone once said to me when I was in a similar situation to yours, ” There is an expression, ‘I am give out”.  What does that mean?”  I gave that question serious thought.  Please, give time to yourself to “refill” that giving nature. My prayers are with you.

  7. We love you and appricate youu more then words can say and do right now….
    I can’t wait for Our Son to arrive and meet his “aunt” Maryann
    Our thoughts and prayers are with you

  8. Bless you for helping with your friend’s transportation.  I know it is hard at times.  I’m sure the Lord is using you to win her trust.  We’ll be standing by and holding up your hands.  God Bless! 

  9. Anonymous

    Hang in there……saying a prayer for you………..

  10. Hello , Hang on there now. I will be praying for you now.GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!

  11. Dear BEG I have very much missed your postings. It is good to know you are well though very busy. I agree with HIM,take time for yourself. Sounds like much going on around you and many changes. I appreciate the tapestry comments from Polly don’t you? You also Dear BEG and your life make up the threads that weave into the tapestry of my life and you are such an encourager to me. I appreciate how you share so much of yourself with and for others. I hope all goes well with Audrey and Blind Linda.

  12. BEG, I left a long comment to you on Lucy’s site.  Hope you see it.  I have been thinking about you a lot and hope you caught some time to refill  and are renewed to carry on.  I would like to know more about Audrey.  If you have time, please, tell a little about her. 

  13. ryc: Sorry to have insulted you!    Do realize I am also older than she is!!!  ACK!!  Almost didn’t write it just for that reason….  lol!  I’m quite certain that sometime after one’s 30th birthday, one becomes young (ish) again!!    Blessings today!

  14. Enjoyed catching up with you on your site. Several nights ago our Father brought you to mind. And I began to pray for you dear sister. This was before I knew of Audrey and the woman you have been giving a ride. This visit with Lem will be short for you along with preparations for Raphs’ leaving. I’m praying constantly for you and would love to help if I can. Our Father will give you the strength you need to tackle each situation. Lean heavily into His arms and don’t hesitate to call for help from others. Love ya!!!!!

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