. . . And now, it is after midnight.  It has been a full, full day.  I am so tired I can scarcely see straight. 

A year ago today (actually Yesterday by the clock) we had a funeral.  For some reason, this day was harder for me than the day that marked a year that Daddy died.  I don’t know why.  One of the things that I have learned over this year is that stuff needs dealing with.  I need to think and then decide to not be crippled by the sad thoughts.  I think this is a sign of healing, because there have been many, many months when I felt sometimes powerless before the grief.

This is one of my favorite pictures of Daddy, taken at Bert and Sarah’s house the day that Elmer was baptized.  Doesn’t he look happy?  I look at him, holding Mama’s hand, and surrounded by “the four musketeers” — our four daughters that ran around together all the time —  still do, whenever they get a chance.

Daddy and some of his girls
From left to right, Carmen Heatwole, (my youngest sister, Alma’s only daughter) Rachel Yutzy, (known as Youngest Daughter of Certain Man and his Wife) Maria Slaubaugh (Middle Daughter of Middle Sister, Sarah), and Holly Yoder, Youngest Daughter to my youngest brother, Mark, Jr.).  And of course, that precious couple in the middle is the Grandma and Grandpa of them all — my Sweet Mama, and my now gone Daddy.

You could not have told me how much I would miss him.


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6 responses to “

  1. Yes, hugs from me too, Mary Ann. I still miss my sister Janet intensely sometimes. I just long to be with her, to get an email from her, to talk and laugh with her, to feel the affirmation and love she so freely gave me (and everyone around her.) Losing precious loved ones surely keeps us longing for heaven.

  2. And by the way, that is an awesome picture of your parents and the girls. A real treasure.

  3. Mary what a precious, precious memory.  I’m copying it and tucking it away in my Yoder file.  Thanks so much for sharing it.  By the way, what day did Elmer get baptized?.  Dad looks so, very happy!  I want to just look and look at his face. 

  4. Mary Ann, what a treasure for the grandchildren too!!!  God knew what HE was doing to plan for supportive figures in their lives of different ages for different needs for a strong image of HIMSELF.

  5. Anonymous

    im sorry about ur daddy…

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