Some posts back, I was lamenting about the fact that we had gotten a rather poor chicken check.  (This post is a long time coming, and some of the local folk have heard me talking about this, so just skip it if you don’t want to hear about it, okay??)

Anyhow—  We got our chicken check on July 3rd.  It was quite a tough time for these old chicken growers.  And I didn’t say much to Certain Man because it is against my “br-r-r-inzibles” (principles) to fuss about stuff when he is riled up.  I try hard to keep my head level and cool because I just might need him to be level and cool for me when situations might call for it.

But I did some earnest talking (alright, COMPLAINING!!!) to my Heavenly Father.  “What are we going to do?  How will we ever manage?  You know all about this, but if there is some way to FIX IT, then please do.”  And I juggled finances in my head, wondered if there were something of value in this house that I could sell, thought of all sorts of alternatives, etc., etc., etc..

I’ve been reading some in Oswald Chamber’s book, My Utmost For His Highest, and when I came to the reading for July 4th the title was “One of God’s Great Don’ts.”   I felt the words burn into my soul as I marched my way determinedly through it.  It began by saying;

“Fretting means getting out at elbows mentally or spiritually.  It is one thing to say “Fret not,” but a very different thing to have such a disposition that you find yourself able not to fret.” H-m-m-m-m.  “Oh, boy!  Why do these topics always come up at such “opportune times?”

It went on to say, “Fussing always ends in sin . . .Fretting is wicked if you are a child of God”  “Lord, isn’t this a little harsh, I mean, I know it isn’t right to complain, but sin?  Anyhow, Oswald Chambers isn’t the Bible.”

And then this:  “Have you been bolstering up that stupid soul of yours with the idea that your circumstances are too much for God?

I couldn’t very well read this and not know that it applied pretty well to the situation I was in.  But my nose was out of joint.  I said to Youngest Daughter, “I’m gonna’ go get Daily Guideposts and read that for a while.  I don’t think they’ve ever said anything about a ‘stupid soul’ and they make me feel a whole lot better about myself.”

And so, I did!  But I still keep coming back to Oswald Chambers for the challenge he gives to my mind and the thoughts that he makes me think, and the way he shakes me out of my comfort zone.  I can’t say that I’ve ever read the whole book — it seems like I read it for a while, and then it gets “uncomfortable” enough that I put it away for a while.  It is so radical.  So incredibly deep.  So very demanding.

But isn’t that the definition of being a disciple?  Radical.  In a relationship with a person that is deep.  That by definition demands our all?  I am reminded tonight of a quote that was given to us by our teaching director at Community Bible Study.  “Salvation is free.”  She said to us in her quiet, intense way.  “But it takes everything to be a disciple.”

“Lord Jesus, I want to be a disciple!”


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  1. “Ouch”. Guess I needed to hear this!
    Another quote I know(I really do not like it when it applies to me though)  A good sermon will “Comfort the troubled and trouble the comfortable”…………Sometimes I am way too comfortable. Good post Dear BEG.

  2. It is a BIG mouthful that we often so causually say or sing – ….love so amazing, so divine, demands my soul, my life my ALL….or I surrender ALL…  It takes awhile to get from the head to the heart and then into action.  What looks like such work, feels like great compromise, humility or whatever,  turns out to be a HUGE privilege. 

  3. It is very hard not to worry about your life.  That’s where the your FAITH in God has to kick in.  It’s always very hard on us as humans to “Let Go and Let God”.  But as God has always shown He has a plan for us and it’s up to us to believe that he does.  We just don’t see the big picture and it can get us worried.  But if he’s watching the birds and making sure they’re alright, your family will be fine. God Bless!

  4. Amen! I am recommending you! worry makes us do things we wouldn’t ordinarily do. 🙂

  5. oh  I so needed to hear  that thanks for the little prick to the conscience

  6. I needed to hear this too, thanks for sharing itI guess I will need to have a talk with the Lord sometime soon about matters of my heart and confessing about my fussy behavior

  7. v from Idaho

    Thank you for today’s post. I am a fusser and a fretter, thus the verse on my refrigerator….Jeremiah 32:27   Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh: is there anything too hard for me?   blessings   v

  8. Oh, I do love Oswald Chambers and his prickly words, even though I hate them sometimes. I have gone through that book so many times and marked it up so badly that I think I need a new one so I can better hear the words as they pertain to my current situations. I pray God surprised you at this difficult time.

  9. I am constantly amazed how I can relate to so many of your posts. I don’t always leave a comment but I love the challenges that you leave. God is not nearly as concerned with our comfort as he is with our character. Have a great day!

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